January 4, 2009
♥ LAst holiday
Gosh, two weeks have passed and that marks an end to my winter break. So shitty, I have never even study anything at all. Not a single work is done and all I did was slack and slack. Sleep, eat, and play but study. When will I get motivated? I'm so freaking left behind and I hardly feel any stress. Am I nuts or what?
Exams are around the corner and as I saw the amount needed for my exams fees, I started to get worried. I don't want to waste my parents money and disappoint them, I want to score well, seriously, but why am I like this? A loser who afraid to fall again. I don't want history to happen again, like what I did in my A Levels, so disappointing after all the hard work. Its an indescribable feelings, trying to be strong and cheerful in front of others, but deep inside, I really care and I'm really hurt.
But for all I know, no one was there for me, no one. Everyone was either working or busy applying for university. Even my parents and SM, they thought I had put it behind, but they are wrong. I'm not as strong as what I seems to be, I'm emotional and weak, hiding in one corner hoping that a savor will help me get out of this hole.
This song sings out my heart...
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cares
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the one that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shed when I'm near
I'm strong to surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the one that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to have so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the one that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to have so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
-= Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest =
16:10
tan siok yong sharon